Friday, September 26, 2008

Nostalgia....

I thought i'd devote a post to my nostalgic phase of pregnancy i'm in. I was sitting in the waiting room the other day with little Bella moving and rolling. I heard a girl go up to the counter and ask for a pregnancy test and I remember doing that. I remember I was about to jump out of my skin from excitement when I asked for a test. I could not quit smiling. And, when I get excited I can't talk, I just have to laugh and squeal before any real words come out. So, I kindof did that and finally got the test. I hadn't told Mike yet either so it was a bit surreal to truly find out if we truly were pregnant. I remember giving the test to the lady in the lab and wanting to hug her and make sure she took care of it and didn't lose it. But, she seemed to not care that I took the little baggie to her in all smiles. I think I looked like this for a while! This is right after I found out about Bella.

Back to now: Also in the waiting room were women at all stages of their pregnancy. Some looked like they were in the first trimester, with the green faces, others were barely showing, and others could barely get out of their chairs. I remembered waiting in that room when I was sick at the beginning and calling my phone in a panic about being a mother. Thanks mom for encouraging me through those 2 phone calls...ok, so it was more like 10 freak-out phone calls which included me crying and saying "I don't know how to be a mom", "I'm going to get fat", "Oh my goodness, labor what???", "I don't want to be sick forever", and other first-time-mommy freak out statements. My mom was awesome during those times!!! And, then when I was 3, 4, 5, 6, and 7 months along and "pooching" out a little so people would know I was pregnant. Yes, I did want to show Bella off and let everyone know. So, I stood with my back arched a little every time I waited for the doctor until I finally started showing!

Back to now: It was a bittersweet moment while I was sitting because in less than 3 weeks Bella will enter the world and no longer be in me. I know that the fun has ONLY barely begun but it sure has been fun to be pregnant. Especially now that i'm finally showing and am getting the pregnant-belly stares in Wal-mart (can I get a what-what!) and waddling a little bit. I'm LOVING this part of showing off our little girl. What a joy it is to carry this precious (and very active) little baby. She's more responsive right now to Mike than ever. I'm just soaking it all in...from the beginning test, to the 2am walks/run to fend off nausea, to the "Woohoo for the belly" thoughts, to feeling her hold her foot up when Mike puts his hand on my stomach. Thank you Lord for precious life!

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

You are an adorable pregnant woman! Motherhood is the most amazing thing. Enjoy the last couple of weeks with her inside of you.

Unknown said...

I can't believe it's almost time!! I can't wait! :)

The Gossmanns said...

It's hard to believe she'll be here any day now, and I just don't know if I can wait!

I'm so excited for you guys. Get ready for the biggest blessing of your life! I can't wait to meet her!!!!

Praying for you and know you're gonna be a DIVA in that delivery room!!!!